Well I called Dawn today to see if I could pick up Anayah today, but she hasn’t returned my call yet. I am hoping to get her today since I’m having eye surgery on Tuesday and it will be a better part of a week before I can drive again. She’s only seven weeks old right now, but again I hope Dawn lets me get her. I am getting very antsy for Anayah and even Danny is getting excited! I want to call again, but I don’t want to seem desperate. I know I just need to be patient, but that’s easier said than done. It’s an hour’s drive out there so I’d like to get on the road so I can get back home by dinner time. Oh geez I don’t know if I should call again or just wait…
In other news, Kathy (our friend/worker’s wife) has had back pain for about three weeks now. She thought she had a kidney stone and was just waiting for it to pass. Yesterday she started running a pretty high fever and the pain was getting worse, so I got online and looked up home remedies for passing a kidney stone. The only thing I could find was 2 oz. of olive oil and 2 oz. of lemon juice combined and drink it down and the stone should pass in about 24 hours. It also said to get in a hot shower (as hot as you could stand it) and let it beat on your back. Well we have the hot tub so she climbed in there and let the massagers beat on her back. Well about 2:00 in the morning Rick came in and said he was taking Kathy to the ER. When she got there she found out she didn’t have a kidney stone but a severe kidney infection and bacterial infection in the kidney. They said she was hours away from her kidney shutting down!! So she’s still in the hospital on antibiotics and pain killers. What really stinks is they have no insurance. So while I was at church this morning I asked for prayer for her. There is untold power in prayer!!! She is truly blessed that her kidney didn’t shut down and that she’ll be able to make a full recovery from this.
Church was good this morning!! I am always blessed by Don’s teaching. My church family is a rock that the Lord has provided for me here on earth. The Lord never ceases to amaze me with the outpouring of love that He shows to me through others. I’ve been working on some of my poems to my Lord and am trying to get it set up on powerpoint in MicroSoft office. I think once I get it done it will be a beautiful tribute to our Lord and I hope I can figure out how to share it with others.
I guess that’s it for now. I guess I’m going to try Dawn one more time and hope I don’t seem too desperate. I guess I could clean on the house, but I really don’t want to. I need to do laundry, but I figure I’ll be here all next week so I can get it done then. I’m always the procrastinator. May the Lord bless you and keep you surrounded in His amazing love!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Another Eye Surgery...
I won’t be able to blog as of next Tuesday so I guess I better finish up what’s been going on. Next Tuesday I go in for another PRK eye surgery. I guess when my eyes healed they did so giving me far sightedness rather than perfect 20/20 vision. I can’t say I am looking forward to this because I remember how bad it hurt last time. I do know one thing, when he offers to give me pain pills this time I’m going to take them! This also means I’ll be off work for a week. This makes me incredibly sad because I love my job so much. However, Natalie said it would be fine, especially since it couldn’t be helped. The other problem I’m having is seeing double. It gets so annoying to see two things rather than just one. It gets especially bad at night time, so I’m going to talk to Dr. Melton about it when I go in on Tuesday.
Last week I got one of my killer headaches!! It got so bad that they took me to the ER so I could get a shot to help calm down the pain. However, the doctor that saw me wasn’t very sympathetic. He said if I could go to work with a headache like this then obviously I wasn’t in that much pain!! If I would have felt better I think I would have told him off. But in any case I went to see Dr. Becker the next day and he gave me the shot that I had been longing for. Within 30 minutes my headache started going away! I felt so much better! I do think it’s time to go back and see my pain specialist thought. The headaches have been coming with more frequency here lately so I think it’s time to start getting the shots in my neck again. The bad thing about that is I’ll have to miss more work. We’ll see how long I can hold out considering I’ll be off work for a week. It’s important for me to get back to work the following week because our district manager will be in. I have to admit I’m a little nervous about it.
Ciara is over her strep throat now and went back to school on Monday. She seems to be liking seventh grade so far. Danny just about has the business up and running and should be working by Tuesday or Wednesday of this next week. He does have to drive me to the eye surgery appointment but it only takes a few hours. Rick and Kathy have stayed with us this whole week and it’s been nice to have the company. They are quickly becoming dear and cherished friends!!!
Well I guess that’s it for now. I should be able to blog again in about two weeks or so and of course I’ll want to update everyone on Anayah. I can’t begin to tell you how excited I am about getting her!!! I’ve also decided after Anayah I want to get an Isabella female and an American cream female. That will give us a total of four females and one male. I think four litters a year is more than plenty. I’m starting to pick out names now. I love doing the research into the names and their meanings. I wish I had done that with Ciara although I still like her name. Ok I’m really going this time. Know I am praying for you and please keep us in your thoughts and prayers!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Last week I got one of my killer headaches!! It got so bad that they took me to the ER so I could get a shot to help calm down the pain. However, the doctor that saw me wasn’t very sympathetic. He said if I could go to work with a headache like this then obviously I wasn’t in that much pain!! If I would have felt better I think I would have told him off. But in any case I went to see Dr. Becker the next day and he gave me the shot that I had been longing for. Within 30 minutes my headache started going away! I felt so much better! I do think it’s time to go back and see my pain specialist thought. The headaches have been coming with more frequency here lately so I think it’s time to start getting the shots in my neck again. The bad thing about that is I’ll have to miss more work. We’ll see how long I can hold out considering I’ll be off work for a week. It’s important for me to get back to work the following week because our district manager will be in. I have to admit I’m a little nervous about it.
Ciara is over her strep throat now and went back to school on Monday. She seems to be liking seventh grade so far. Danny just about has the business up and running and should be working by Tuesday or Wednesday of this next week. He does have to drive me to the eye surgery appointment but it only takes a few hours. Rick and Kathy have stayed with us this whole week and it’s been nice to have the company. They are quickly becoming dear and cherished friends!!!
Well I guess that’s it for now. I should be able to blog again in about two weeks or so and of course I’ll want to update everyone on Anayah. I can’t begin to tell you how excited I am about getting her!!! I’ve also decided after Anayah I want to get an Isabella female and an American cream female. That will give us a total of four females and one male. I think four litters a year is more than plenty. I’m starting to pick out names now. I love doing the research into the names and their meanings. I wish I had done that with Ciara although I still like her name. Ok I’m really going this time. Know I am praying for you and please keep us in your thoughts and prayers!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Crash...Bang
So much has happened since I last blogged!!! I don’t even know where to begin. I know I’ll forget some stuff but I’ll do my best. The biggest thing that happened was I was in a little fender bender. I was getting off the highway to come home from taking Ciara to the doctor (she had strep throat) and when I looked behind me when I was yielding the car in front of me slammed on their brakes. Now keep in mind there were NO cars coming!!! I hit her going maybe 5 max 10 miles per hour. We pulled to the side and I thought we would just exchange insurance information and I would be on my way. I was in a hurry to get going because a friend of mine had died and his funeral was that day. Well the lady jumps out of her car and starts cussing at me immediately. She used the most foul language you could possibly imagine. I got my insurance out and they (there were two women in the car) were walking around like nothing was wrong. Well all of a sudden the driver starts saying she’s got a headache. They were talking to each other about whether or not they should call the police or not. Not only did they call the police, but they also called the fire department and the ambulance!!
So the fire department gets there and all of a sudden they couldn’t move (when they had been acting just fine!!!). The guys came back to check on us and we told them we were fine that we had no injuries. Well these women were putting on such a show that they kept coming back to make sure we were ok. Ciara pipes up and says, “We’re fine, they’re just faking it!”. The firefighter just dies laughing and rubs the top of her head and says ok. Well the police get there and the woman tried lying to the cops and told them the passenger was actually the driver. Why you ask? Well come to find out the woman who was driving was driving under a suspended license!!! The police officer came over and told us what we had said and both Ciara and I start saying oh no the small woman in the blue was driving. Well instantly the police start putting two and two together. Ciara told them there was no oncoming traffic so there was no need for the woman to slam on her brakes. There was also a witness that verified everything we said!!! Can we say scam!!!! So the police officer takes me to his car and takes my statement and tells me, “I want you to understand that I’m not giving you a ticket because your husband is a retired officer, but because these women have wasted my time!!” I was like woohoo!! I didn’t say that just you get the drift.
So now it’s time to talk to the insurance company. The women told the officers and the insurance company that I was going 40mph and knocked them clear into the middle of the street!!! (LIARS!) There is a tiny dent on the front of my car and that’s it!!! They had a small dent on the back of their car and nothing else! So the insurance adjuster came out and took pictures of my car and she said, “That’s it?!” I said yep. She confirmed that I was doing between 5-10mph when I hit them because otherwise there would have been more damage to the car. I told the insurance company that I thought it was a scam and I told them what the officer had said and they said they would research it really well. The women are now claiming that (they both have neck and back surgery) I messed up the hardware in their back because I hit them so hard and they both think they will need additional surgeries now! What a load of crap!!!! The insurance company says they are just looking for a payday and they aren’t going to give it to them!!! Haha the scammers lose and I win!
Let’s see…what else has happened…I did finally find Anayah!!! She’ll come home on Labor Day and I’m so excited!! She is a clear red miniature dachshund and she is just beautiful!!! We are still having trouble getting Asher and Elowyn registered as AKC but I think with a little bit of patience it will happen. While I was looking for Anayah I called all over the country to see if people would ship her to me. I called this one lady and she asked me if I had prayed about it yet. I told her no, and she said that God was telling her that I should pray for the right dog to come along and that I would know her when I saw her. So that’ what I started doing. I prayed that God would lead me to the perfect dog. When I said I prayed it wasn’t a quick prayer and that was it. I prayed hard! You see, I miss Hannah so much and I wanted Anayah right then!!! I would have taken the first dog that came my way. But after praying I found this lady that said she had a red one and she sent me pictures and when I first saw her, I thought no this isn’t the one. So I called our old breeder to see if she had any available. I wasn’t planning on buying from her because her puppies are no longer registered AKC but APRI. She did have two so I went out there to look at them. When I saw her I knew instantly which one was mine!!! I paid her the money and now it’s just the waiting game. I had forgotten what Anayah meant (I just love the sound of the name!), so when I got home I looked it up. It means “God Has Answered”!!!! Wow!!! How fitting!!! We serve such a great God!! He answers us in even the smallest of things!
There’s more but I have to jump off here and go babysit. But I will blog again later and finish catching you up on the latest. Got to run. God bless you and keep you safe in His loving hands!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
So the fire department gets there and all of a sudden they couldn’t move (when they had been acting just fine!!!). The guys came back to check on us and we told them we were fine that we had no injuries. Well these women were putting on such a show that they kept coming back to make sure we were ok. Ciara pipes up and says, “We’re fine, they’re just faking it!”. The firefighter just dies laughing and rubs the top of her head and says ok. Well the police get there and the woman tried lying to the cops and told them the passenger was actually the driver. Why you ask? Well come to find out the woman who was driving was driving under a suspended license!!! The police officer came over and told us what we had said and both Ciara and I start saying oh no the small woman in the blue was driving. Well instantly the police start putting two and two together. Ciara told them there was no oncoming traffic so there was no need for the woman to slam on her brakes. There was also a witness that verified everything we said!!! Can we say scam!!!! So the police officer takes me to his car and takes my statement and tells me, “I want you to understand that I’m not giving you a ticket because your husband is a retired officer, but because these women have wasted my time!!” I was like woohoo!! I didn’t say that just you get the drift.
So now it’s time to talk to the insurance company. The women told the officers and the insurance company that I was going 40mph and knocked them clear into the middle of the street!!! (LIARS!) There is a tiny dent on the front of my car and that’s it!!! They had a small dent on the back of their car and nothing else! So the insurance adjuster came out and took pictures of my car and she said, “That’s it?!” I said yep. She confirmed that I was doing between 5-10mph when I hit them because otherwise there would have been more damage to the car. I told the insurance company that I thought it was a scam and I told them what the officer had said and they said they would research it really well. The women are now claiming that (they both have neck and back surgery) I messed up the hardware in their back because I hit them so hard and they both think they will need additional surgeries now! What a load of crap!!!! The insurance company says they are just looking for a payday and they aren’t going to give it to them!!! Haha the scammers lose and I win!
Let’s see…what else has happened…I did finally find Anayah!!! She’ll come home on Labor Day and I’m so excited!! She is a clear red miniature dachshund and she is just beautiful!!! We are still having trouble getting Asher and Elowyn registered as AKC but I think with a little bit of patience it will happen. While I was looking for Anayah I called all over the country to see if people would ship her to me. I called this one lady and she asked me if I had prayed about it yet. I told her no, and she said that God was telling her that I should pray for the right dog to come along and that I would know her when I saw her. So that’ what I started doing. I prayed that God would lead me to the perfect dog. When I said I prayed it wasn’t a quick prayer and that was it. I prayed hard! You see, I miss Hannah so much and I wanted Anayah right then!!! I would have taken the first dog that came my way. But after praying I found this lady that said she had a red one and she sent me pictures and when I first saw her, I thought no this isn’t the one. So I called our old breeder to see if she had any available. I wasn’t planning on buying from her because her puppies are no longer registered AKC but APRI. She did have two so I went out there to look at them. When I saw her I knew instantly which one was mine!!! I paid her the money and now it’s just the waiting game. I had forgotten what Anayah meant (I just love the sound of the name!), so when I got home I looked it up. It means “God Has Answered”!!!! Wow!!! How fitting!!! We serve such a great God!! He answers us in even the smallest of things!
There’s more but I have to jump off here and go babysit. But I will blog again later and finish catching you up on the latest. Got to run. God bless you and keep you safe in His loving hands!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Ciara's Sick...
It seems like life is always taking twist and turns that are so unexpected. I guess that’s just life though. I suppose that’s a way to keep us on our knees before God always seeking His guidance and His support. As I blogged yesterday, we had the house to ourselves last night. I went for a swim for a little while by myself. When I came back in Ciara was complaining about not feeling good. She said her throat was hurting and she was all stuffy. I didn’t think much of it and we laid on the couch and snuggled for a little while. She went to bed at her regular time and everything seemed fine. I’m not sure what time it was but Ciara woke me up and was crying. At first I thought she had a bad dream, but she leaned over and whispered she was feeling horrible and wanted to know if she could sleep with us. I said sure so I scooted to the middle and let her slide in next to me. Now I have this unusual gift of being able to taste a fever on myself and smelling fever on others (I know it sounds crazy but it’s true). When she laid down I could smell her immediately. I put my hand to her forehead and she was burning hot. We didn’t have a thermometer in the house and I thought about taking her to the hospital I was so worried about her. We didn’t go but I knew there was no way she could go to school with such a high fever. So I gave her some Tylenol and laid back down with her.
I slept in pretty late since I didn’t have to take her to school and the Tylenol helped to bring down her fever. When I got up she was still complaining about her throat so I looked in the back and I thought I saw white pockets on the back of it but I couldn’t be certain because I didn’t have a flashlight to look back there really good. I had to get ready for work and since Danny was home I wasn’t worried about leaving her although I hate to leave her when she’s sick. I had Danny pick up her school work while I went to work. I had so many boxes to unpack it was unbelievable!! Natalie said I could leave early but I didn’t do it because I felt guilty since I have to be gone from work tomorrow for Terry’s funeral. I had told her I could come in first thing in the morning if freight got there early, but then I called Danny and he found the flashlight and looked at the back of her throat and sure enough she has white pockets covering her throat. So I called the doctor and I have an appointment for her first thing in the morning. So that made it to where I couldn’t even go in early to help them out, but Natalie told me she totally understood and that there was no problem with them doing freight tomorrow.
Well Danny just walked through the door so I’m going to jump off of here. Please keep Ciara in your prayers. Also keep Terry’s family and friends in your prayers. I think tomorrow will be a rough day for everyone. Oh, by the way today was my first day not smoking!! I’m back to trying the patch again and I pray it works this time. Also keep that in your prayers, that God would help me to be successful this time around. Also please pray that Danny and I don’t get sick. I’m not feeling so well right now and I’m running a low grade fever myself. The last thing we need is for all of us to get sick! Thank you for your prayers in advance and know I am praying for you as well!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
I slept in pretty late since I didn’t have to take her to school and the Tylenol helped to bring down her fever. When I got up she was still complaining about her throat so I looked in the back and I thought I saw white pockets on the back of it but I couldn’t be certain because I didn’t have a flashlight to look back there really good. I had to get ready for work and since Danny was home I wasn’t worried about leaving her although I hate to leave her when she’s sick. I had Danny pick up her school work while I went to work. I had so many boxes to unpack it was unbelievable!! Natalie said I could leave early but I didn’t do it because I felt guilty since I have to be gone from work tomorrow for Terry’s funeral. I had told her I could come in first thing in the morning if freight got there early, but then I called Danny and he found the flashlight and looked at the back of her throat and sure enough she has white pockets covering her throat. So I called the doctor and I have an appointment for her first thing in the morning. So that made it to where I couldn’t even go in early to help them out, but Natalie told me she totally understood and that there was no problem with them doing freight tomorrow.
Well Danny just walked through the door so I’m going to jump off of here. Please keep Ciara in your prayers. Also keep Terry’s family and friends in your prayers. I think tomorrow will be a rough day for everyone. Oh, by the way today was my first day not smoking!! I’m back to trying the patch again and I pray it works this time. Also keep that in your prayers, that God would help me to be successful this time around. Also please pray that Danny and I don’t get sick. I’m not feeling so well right now and I’m running a low grade fever myself. The last thing we need is for all of us to get sick! Thank you for your prayers in advance and know I am praying for you as well!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Anger Issues....
I went to see Anita today and we had a good visit. She seems to think I’m struggling with some anger issues and she tells me that forgiveness is the key. I must say there are some things that are easier to forgive than others. I know I’m dealing with some unforgiveness in my heart and I’m not sure how to change that. At this point there are things I can’t even pray about because I get angry just thinking about it. I know we are suppose to forgive much because there is much that we have been forgiven. But that is where you know God is God and you are not. What I don’t want is bitterness to creep in where anger has taken root. The other hard thing is I feel that my anger is a righteous one. No I haven’t chosen to act upon it, so I haven’t sinned in my anger but still, it’s something I can’t change so the only person it’s hurting is me. This is something I will have to pray about and ask God to bring forgiveness and peace to my heart. I can’t allow the enemy to have any access to me and in my continued anger that’s what I’m allowing to happen.
I received a text from Michelle today that Terry’s funeral will be this Friday. I will have to take off work to go to the funeral but they’ve already said it would be ok to be off work that day. I think I need to go and pay my respects and I just need additional confirmation that he truly was a Christian. I want to rest in the fact that he is now with our Savior in glory. I would be heartbroken to find out that he wasn’t a Christian with all the opportunities that I had to share the gospel with him. Yes I lived my life as an example but sometimes we have to do more than that. I have come to the conclusion that I am not as outspoken about my Lord as I need to be. I’m not sure how to change this, but I want to live for Him not only by example of my life, but with words from my lips. This is something I will have to pray about and ask God’s help in stepping outside my comfort zone and professing Him as loudly as possible.
Other than that it’s been a relatively calm day. I have felt restless and frazzled today for some reason but the why of it escapes me. I don’t feel calm inside but indifferent. Skyler is over today and he’s set up our printer and fax machine. He’s also piddled on the computers and got them to where they need to be. Typically all we do is feed him dinner because he says that’s payment enough, but this time we’re giving him money because he is trying to earn some to build himself his own computer. We won’t be going to church tonight since Skyler is over. Also Rick and Kathy went home tonight and I think Danny is a little relieved. He says as much as he loves them and appreciates all they do, he was ready to have a night with just the family. Well I guess I better run. I want to look for Aniyah for awhile and see if I can find my new baby. I know she’s out there it’s just a matter of finding her. I think I’m also going to go swimming for awhile. I just need to relax for a little bit. Just know you are in my prayers and I ask you to continue to pray for me. Blessings to you all!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
I received a text from Michelle today that Terry’s funeral will be this Friday. I will have to take off work to go to the funeral but they’ve already said it would be ok to be off work that day. I think I need to go and pay my respects and I just need additional confirmation that he truly was a Christian. I want to rest in the fact that he is now with our Savior in glory. I would be heartbroken to find out that he wasn’t a Christian with all the opportunities that I had to share the gospel with him. Yes I lived my life as an example but sometimes we have to do more than that. I have come to the conclusion that I am not as outspoken about my Lord as I need to be. I’m not sure how to change this, but I want to live for Him not only by example of my life, but with words from my lips. This is something I will have to pray about and ask God’s help in stepping outside my comfort zone and professing Him as loudly as possible.
Other than that it’s been a relatively calm day. I have felt restless and frazzled today for some reason but the why of it escapes me. I don’t feel calm inside but indifferent. Skyler is over today and he’s set up our printer and fax machine. He’s also piddled on the computers and got them to where they need to be. Typically all we do is feed him dinner because he says that’s payment enough, but this time we’re giving him money because he is trying to earn some to build himself his own computer. We won’t be going to church tonight since Skyler is over. Also Rick and Kathy went home tonight and I think Danny is a little relieved. He says as much as he loves them and appreciates all they do, he was ready to have a night with just the family. Well I guess I better run. I want to look for Aniyah for awhile and see if I can find my new baby. I know she’s out there it’s just a matter of finding her. I think I’m also going to go swimming for awhile. I just need to relax for a little bit. Just know you are in my prayers and I ask you to continue to pray for me. Blessings to you all!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Rest In Peace Terry....
Today after I got through blogging I received one of those phone calls that everyone knows will happen but dreads when it does. A few years ago I was working for John and Renee at their forklift company and met this amazing mechanic named Terry. He was so funny, lighthearted, and loved life. His joy for life was contagious. We quickly became great friends and he loved to cut up with me. He was also so very encouraging and could always lift my spirits when they were down. Simply put, he was a good man.
This morning Michelle called me with the news that Terry had passed away this very morning. She told me that about a month ago he had gotten sick and went to the doctor only to find out he had cancer. The doctors started him on chemotherapy right away and he was responding very well to it. They had intended on starting radiation this week and the doctors had great hope that he would recover from the cancer. However, the Lord had other plans. While heaven is a better place now with him in it, the world is definitely less than what it was when he was in it. We are all taking it pretty hard because it was so unexpected. I can easily say he was my favorite mechanic there! You couldn’t meet him and not like him. I plan on attending the funeral whenever they have it, I’m just not sure when it’s going to be yet. He was only in his 50’s and that is so young!
So needless to say it put a great damper on my day. I did have a good time tonight at Jam Fest with Ciara. She’s really good at playing the drums and she seemed to really enjoy herself. Also Kathy cleaned my house today and I was overjoyed when I came home! I think I will keep her. Danny also told her about my poetry and my writings and she wanted to read some of it. She echoed what everyone else has said and says I should see about getting my stuff published. I know everyone who reads it says the same thing, but I guess it’s true what they say that you are your own worst critic. Skyler is coming over tomorrow to work on getting us our wireless printer set up. We also bought Skyler’s old laptop today so now Danny has his own computer. That means mine will no longer be cluttered with mechanical things that I have no clue about lol. Skyler is also going to install Windows 7 on my laptop and we went and bought Quicken Business and Home software that he will install on Danny’s computer. This time we will pay him for his work along with feeding him dinner. He’s looking for some money to build his own computer and we want to help him out with it.
Other than that not much happened today. I did look online for Aniyah again but I can’t find any shorthaired miniature dachshunds. I’m hoping to get her as soon as possible. I feel like I need another baby to love on with Hannah being gone. Work was short today, we only got in two boxes of freight, but I had to send out close to twenty boxes to other stores. I was only there about three hours and then was able to come home. Danny’s dump truck is coming along nicely with Rick and Kathy working on it. I’m pretty sure they will be staying the night again tonight. I’ve got a vague headache and it’s just enough to be a nuisance. I’ve had a stiff neck now for almost two weeks and I’m really getting sick of it. I need to get in to see a few of my doctor’s and get Ciara to the doctor (she’s going first) for a sports physical. There’s much to do if I can just get it all done. Please pray for Terry’s family, friends, and co-workers. We appreciate your prayers and know God will hear them. I thank the Lord for the time He gave me with Terry and I take comfort that the Lord didn’t make him suffer here on earth. While I may not understand God’s will or timing I can have faith that He is a big enough God to take care of all things. Praise Him on high!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
This morning Michelle called me with the news that Terry had passed away this very morning. She told me that about a month ago he had gotten sick and went to the doctor only to find out he had cancer. The doctors started him on chemotherapy right away and he was responding very well to it. They had intended on starting radiation this week and the doctors had great hope that he would recover from the cancer. However, the Lord had other plans. While heaven is a better place now with him in it, the world is definitely less than what it was when he was in it. We are all taking it pretty hard because it was so unexpected. I can easily say he was my favorite mechanic there! You couldn’t meet him and not like him. I plan on attending the funeral whenever they have it, I’m just not sure when it’s going to be yet. He was only in his 50’s and that is so young!
So needless to say it put a great damper on my day. I did have a good time tonight at Jam Fest with Ciara. She’s really good at playing the drums and she seemed to really enjoy herself. Also Kathy cleaned my house today and I was overjoyed when I came home! I think I will keep her. Danny also told her about my poetry and my writings and she wanted to read some of it. She echoed what everyone else has said and says I should see about getting my stuff published. I know everyone who reads it says the same thing, but I guess it’s true what they say that you are your own worst critic. Skyler is coming over tomorrow to work on getting us our wireless printer set up. We also bought Skyler’s old laptop today so now Danny has his own computer. That means mine will no longer be cluttered with mechanical things that I have no clue about lol. Skyler is also going to install Windows 7 on my laptop and we went and bought Quicken Business and Home software that he will install on Danny’s computer. This time we will pay him for his work along with feeding him dinner. He’s looking for some money to build his own computer and we want to help him out with it.
Other than that not much happened today. I did look online for Aniyah again but I can’t find any shorthaired miniature dachshunds. I’m hoping to get her as soon as possible. I feel like I need another baby to love on with Hannah being gone. Work was short today, we only got in two boxes of freight, but I had to send out close to twenty boxes to other stores. I was only there about three hours and then was able to come home. Danny’s dump truck is coming along nicely with Rick and Kathy working on it. I’m pretty sure they will be staying the night again tonight. I’ve got a vague headache and it’s just enough to be a nuisance. I’ve had a stiff neck now for almost two weeks and I’m really getting sick of it. I need to get in to see a few of my doctor’s and get Ciara to the doctor (she’s going first) for a sports physical. There’s much to do if I can just get it all done. Please pray for Terry’s family, friends, and co-workers. We appreciate your prayers and know God will hear them. I thank the Lord for the time He gave me with Terry and I take comfort that the Lord didn’t make him suffer here on earth. While I may not understand God’s will or timing I can have faith that He is a big enough God to take care of all things. Praise Him on high!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Catching You Up....
Life is getting back into the swing of things with school being back in session. I’m doing something a little different this year though. I’m getting up earlier in the morning so I can go out and have my morning coffee with a cigarette then going and fixing Ciara’s lunch and sometimes breakfast. I enjoy getting up earlier and having that little bit of time to wake up. Last year (and years prior) I would get up in time to throw on some clothes and get in the car to drive her to school. What I found is I would start to fall asleep on the way back home from bringing her to school. I had a few scary calls with my eyes half closed so I’ve decided I need to be completely awake before I crawl behind the wheel. Not only that but Ciara and I have time to spend some time together before she heads off to school.
This weekend was pretty great! It was my first set of days off since we went to Missouri two weeks ago. I was really ready for a few days off to spend time with the family. I went and got my hair trimmed some more and just piddled around the house. Shay came out on Sunday and it made my weekend!!! I have missed her so very much. It’s been a better part of a month since she’s been out here and that’s too long! I don’t know what I’m going to do when she moves to Louisiana for college at LSU. She’s not the only one talking about moving away though! Megan is talking about moving to Texas and trying to get on the police department there since Oklahoma has a hiring freeze going on for the foreseeable future. I can’t tell you how incredibly sad this makes me. I love our girls so much and the thought of them being any great length of distance away just breaks my heart. However, I’m praying for God’s will in their lives so I have to be open to what He has for them.
Rick and Kathy (my brother-in-law’s brother-in-law and wife lol and our workers for the new business) have been coming out here and staying the night quite a bit. They are wonderful people and I enjoy having them around so much. They were both raised Pentecostal and have been really burned by the church they were going to. However, they are Christians and hear us talk about how wonderful our church is all the time. So they finally decided to try it out and they really liked it. They said that we had talked about how warm and loving the people were there but didn’t expect them to be that way towards them. They said they could see the love of God pouring through the people there. I told them I would have been greatly disappointed if it had been any other way. Speaking of church Ciara has decided she’s going to start playing the drums on Sundays. We are going to a jamfest tonight there and she is going to show the elders just how talented she is!!! Skyler (our adopted son lol and computer guy) has really talked her up to the elders about playing the drums and her singing. Skyler plays the guitar and has such a phenomenal talent for it!!! I invited Shay to come tonight too and I think she’s going to try and make it if she is feeling better and doesn’t have to work. I plan on staying and enjoying them do their thing tonight. I don’t know if Danny is going tonight or not. I think it will depend on if he gets all his work done today on the business and if Kathy and Rick stay the night again.
Other than that life has been going good. I’m still greatly enjoying my job and I think this is my most favorite job ever!! The Lord is really blessing me through this!! I’m still looking for our next dachshund, Aniyah, but haven’t found her yet. In case I forgot to tell you, we sold Hannah and I’m really having puppy withdraws!! If I have my way we’ll have a house full of miniature dachshunds before it’s all said and done lol. Well I guess I should go get ready for work. I left early yesterday to go get Ciara from volleyball practice and didn’t get all my work done, so now I need to go in early to get it all done before freight gets here so we can mail out the pulls from this week. Pl ease continue to pray for us as we pray for you. Prayer is the strongest, most effective tool that God has given us. I’ve seen prayer turn into miracles and blessings abound. The Lord is mighty and all powerful! Praise Him on high!!! What a mighty God we serve!! Now that’s I’m done catching you up I’m really going to run. Have a wonderful day and I can’t wait until I’m back rambling more lol!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
This weekend was pretty great! It was my first set of days off since we went to Missouri two weeks ago. I was really ready for a few days off to spend time with the family. I went and got my hair trimmed some more and just piddled around the house. Shay came out on Sunday and it made my weekend!!! I have missed her so very much. It’s been a better part of a month since she’s been out here and that’s too long! I don’t know what I’m going to do when she moves to Louisiana for college at LSU. She’s not the only one talking about moving away though! Megan is talking about moving to Texas and trying to get on the police department there since Oklahoma has a hiring freeze going on for the foreseeable future. I can’t tell you how incredibly sad this makes me. I love our girls so much and the thought of them being any great length of distance away just breaks my heart. However, I’m praying for God’s will in their lives so I have to be open to what He has for them.
Rick and Kathy (my brother-in-law’s brother-in-law and wife lol and our workers for the new business) have been coming out here and staying the night quite a bit. They are wonderful people and I enjoy having them around so much. They were both raised Pentecostal and have been really burned by the church they were going to. However, they are Christians and hear us talk about how wonderful our church is all the time. So they finally decided to try it out and they really liked it. They said that we had talked about how warm and loving the people were there but didn’t expect them to be that way towards them. They said they could see the love of God pouring through the people there. I told them I would have been greatly disappointed if it had been any other way. Speaking of church Ciara has decided she’s going to start playing the drums on Sundays. We are going to a jamfest tonight there and she is going to show the elders just how talented she is!!! Skyler (our adopted son lol and computer guy) has really talked her up to the elders about playing the drums and her singing. Skyler plays the guitar and has such a phenomenal talent for it!!! I invited Shay to come tonight too and I think she’s going to try and make it if she is feeling better and doesn’t have to work. I plan on staying and enjoying them do their thing tonight. I don’t know if Danny is going tonight or not. I think it will depend on if he gets all his work done today on the business and if Kathy and Rick stay the night again.
Other than that life has been going good. I’m still greatly enjoying my job and I think this is my most favorite job ever!! The Lord is really blessing me through this!! I’m still looking for our next dachshund, Aniyah, but haven’t found her yet. In case I forgot to tell you, we sold Hannah and I’m really having puppy withdraws!! If I have my way we’ll have a house full of miniature dachshunds before it’s all said and done lol. Well I guess I should go get ready for work. I left early yesterday to go get Ciara from volleyball practice and didn’t get all my work done, so now I need to go in early to get it all done before freight gets here so we can mail out the pulls from this week. Pl ease continue to pray for us as we pray for you. Prayer is the strongest, most effective tool that God has given us. I’ve seen prayer turn into miracles and blessings abound. The Lord is mighty and all powerful! Praise Him on high!!! What a mighty God we serve!! Now that’s I’m done catching you up I’m really going to run. Have a wonderful day and I can’t wait until I’m back rambling more lol!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Time is Slipping Away
Every Moment
By: Joy Williams
We laughed out loud ‘til we cried
And the tears were sweet
Midnight melted to morning
A moment faded to memory
All these days
They just slip away through our fingers
So…
Don’t let go
Hold onto every moment
Always know
Hold onto every moment that You can
We move on with no regrets to our destiny
Held by the hands of the Father
We share His love and He leads us through
All these days
They just slip away through our fingers
So…
Don’t let go
Hold onto every moment
Always know
Hold onto every moment that You can
Running through yesterday into tomorrow
Don’t let it just drift away
Forget about tying the hands of time
Give every minute to the One who gave us today
Don’t let go
Hold onto every moment
Always know
Hold onto every moment that You can
Well today is Ciara’s first day of junior high (7th grade) and Shay’s last first day of school as she is a senior this year. I spent the morning praying for all of our girls that the Lord would guide them and protect them. I thanked Him for choosing me to be the one to guide them here on this earth. It just amazes me how fast the time has flown by. I blinked for just a moment and they grew up. How does it happen so fast?! I try to hold fast to the moments but they slip away like water in my hand. The years seem to go by faster with each passing year. Time is flying by so fast that I can’t keep up with it. The tears I cried this morning were bitter sweet; bitter in the fact that they are getting so big, but sweet in the fact that they are getting so big lol. God has blessed us with four amazing girls and I stand in awe of Him and them.
Yesterday is but a memory, tomorrow is uncertain, but today I will cherish with all that I have. We are chained to time and while it grips us we are under its power. It can be cruel and sweet as it is this morning. Time is a friend and an enemy all in the same moment. One day we will be free from the constraints of time, but until that day comes I will cling to my memories and my moments with all that I have. As Ciara was getting ready this morning I was praying for time to slow down, so I could enjoy each second that we had together. Now I am praying for it to speed up so I can see how her day was (and Shay too!!!). Well speaking of time, it’s time for me to get ready for work. It’s only 9:00 in the morning but freight has been coming in early and I want to get there as soon as possible so I can get Ciara after school. I pray for you all and lift you up in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior. He is such a good God and the Holy Spirit is with us always. He binds us together as a family in His amazing love. Don’t let today slip away without finding moments to cherish.
Melissa Fitzwilliam
By: Joy Williams
We laughed out loud ‘til we cried
And the tears were sweet
Midnight melted to morning
A moment faded to memory
All these days
They just slip away through our fingers
So…
Don’t let go
Hold onto every moment
Always know
Hold onto every moment that You can
We move on with no regrets to our destiny
Held by the hands of the Father
We share His love and He leads us through
All these days
They just slip away through our fingers
So…
Don’t let go
Hold onto every moment
Always know
Hold onto every moment that You can
Running through yesterday into tomorrow
Don’t let it just drift away
Forget about tying the hands of time
Give every minute to the One who gave us today
Don’t let go
Hold onto every moment
Always know
Hold onto every moment that You can
Well today is Ciara’s first day of junior high (7th grade) and Shay’s last first day of school as she is a senior this year. I spent the morning praying for all of our girls that the Lord would guide them and protect them. I thanked Him for choosing me to be the one to guide them here on this earth. It just amazes me how fast the time has flown by. I blinked for just a moment and they grew up. How does it happen so fast?! I try to hold fast to the moments but they slip away like water in my hand. The years seem to go by faster with each passing year. Time is flying by so fast that I can’t keep up with it. The tears I cried this morning were bitter sweet; bitter in the fact that they are getting so big, but sweet in the fact that they are getting so big lol. God has blessed us with four amazing girls and I stand in awe of Him and them.
Yesterday is but a memory, tomorrow is uncertain, but today I will cherish with all that I have. We are chained to time and while it grips us we are under its power. It can be cruel and sweet as it is this morning. Time is a friend and an enemy all in the same moment. One day we will be free from the constraints of time, but until that day comes I will cling to my memories and my moments with all that I have. As Ciara was getting ready this morning I was praying for time to slow down, so I could enjoy each second that we had together. Now I am praying for it to speed up so I can see how her day was (and Shay too!!!). Well speaking of time, it’s time for me to get ready for work. It’s only 9:00 in the morning but freight has been coming in early and I want to get there as soon as possible so I can get Ciara after school. I pray for you all and lift you up in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior. He is such a good God and the Holy Spirit is with us always. He binds us together as a family in His amazing love. Don’t let today slip away without finding moments to cherish.
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
God's Moving!!! (can you feel Him?)
Life has been so busy lately but in a good way. We took a trip to Missouri to look at dump trucks and I think we may have found one! It was a fun trip with Rick and Kathy and she kept me laughing the entire time. I think we have found us some good, honest workers, but better than that I think we have found some great lifelong friends! Rick is so knowledgeable about machinery and so is Kathy! We value their opinion and really lean on them to guide us in this search. I have been praying that God would bring us to the right truck! We do need to get this business up and running though and get some money coming in! Things are getting tight again, but I know God has everything under control. While the company on the trip was great, one of the places we stayed left much lacking!!!! It was a dive if I’ve ever seen one, but it was our only option at the time. I learned a valuable lesson that you ask to see the rooms before you agree to pay to stay there!! We also learned to take more clothes than you think you need. We took one day’s change of clothes thinking we would be back the next day. However what started to be a one day trip turned into a four day trip!! We had to go to Wal-Mart and buy us clothes to make it through the trip. However, through all the bumps along the way it was a good trip.
This coming weekend will be tax-free weekend here in Oklahoma. All clothes and school supplies will be tax free from Friday to Sunday. What this means for me is I will work this past Tuesday to next Friday without a day off. This weekend I will be back on the floor working with the customers. They say to be prepared for a crazy weekend! We’ve been told to wear comfortable shoes because we won’t be getting breaks. However, we are all bringing something on Saturday for a Mexican day and as time permits we will be running back to the stock room to stuff our faces and run back on the floor. I’m so glad I like the people that I work with otherwise this could be very miserable. I just saw the weather forecast and it will be in the 100’s this weekend and it’s mandatory fall dress code. What that means is jeans, no sandals, but close toed shoes, and at least three layers on top. Now yes that sounds like a lot but you can wear two tank tops and that counts as two layers. I know what jeans I’m wearing but I haven’t decided what tops I’m wearing yet. Not a big deal but still I want to be comfortable and not burning hot while I’m helping customers.
Tonight is church night and I can’t wait to see my church family. They have been such a huge support to me here recently and the love of God has just poured through them! I stand awed and humble at the people God has put in my life. We serve such an awesome God and I’m so glad to have Him as the Savior of my heart! Speaking of God Ciara went to church camp in Missouri and came back totally on fire for God!! She said she feels like she has been so fully filled by the Holy Spirit that she is amazed. She felt the Holy Spirit move during the entire trip. She has had some anger issues for awhile now and she said it was like this huge knot of anger just vanished during one of the worship sessions. She said the messages were amazing and she can’t wait to get out around people so she can show them through her life that she is a devoted child of God. My heart just overflows at this. She is even vowed to change her habits at school because she said she wasn’t honoring God in her work in years past. She wants to live for God in every way that she can think of and that means being a better daughter, a better friend, and a louder and more active living example of Christ’s great love for us. She has fallen in love with Jesus all over again and has been renewed. She has experienced a revival in her life and also His amazing grace poured out to overflowing! She is walking with Him in every way and I pray this doesn’t go away for her. My prayer is that our other girls experience this same thirst and hunger for our Savior. I also pray that He begins to renew my spirit and set me on fire as He has Ciara. Her joy for Him is contagious! I can’t wait to see what He’s going to do in her life!!!
Well I guess I better get to cleaning house. It’s a complete mess!! I’ve got a load of laundry washing now but I’ve let it build up again and it will take me a better part of a week to get it all done. (sigh) I need to start treating my house as a house of the Lord and keep it the way it deserves! My family deserves to have clean clothes, clean dishes, clean bathrooms, etc. Lord willing, He will begin a new work in me and we will all see the evidence of this in my life. I thank you all for keeping us in your prayers and ask you to continue to do so. I, also, keep you in my prayers and I am so grateful for all of you! The Lord bless you and keep you in the palm of His mighty and loving hand!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
This coming weekend will be tax-free weekend here in Oklahoma. All clothes and school supplies will be tax free from Friday to Sunday. What this means for me is I will work this past Tuesday to next Friday without a day off. This weekend I will be back on the floor working with the customers. They say to be prepared for a crazy weekend! We’ve been told to wear comfortable shoes because we won’t be getting breaks. However, we are all bringing something on Saturday for a Mexican day and as time permits we will be running back to the stock room to stuff our faces and run back on the floor. I’m so glad I like the people that I work with otherwise this could be very miserable. I just saw the weather forecast and it will be in the 100’s this weekend and it’s mandatory fall dress code. What that means is jeans, no sandals, but close toed shoes, and at least three layers on top. Now yes that sounds like a lot but you can wear two tank tops and that counts as two layers. I know what jeans I’m wearing but I haven’t decided what tops I’m wearing yet. Not a big deal but still I want to be comfortable and not burning hot while I’m helping customers.
Tonight is church night and I can’t wait to see my church family. They have been such a huge support to me here recently and the love of God has just poured through them! I stand awed and humble at the people God has put in my life. We serve such an awesome God and I’m so glad to have Him as the Savior of my heart! Speaking of God Ciara went to church camp in Missouri and came back totally on fire for God!! She said she feels like she has been so fully filled by the Holy Spirit that she is amazed. She felt the Holy Spirit move during the entire trip. She has had some anger issues for awhile now and she said it was like this huge knot of anger just vanished during one of the worship sessions. She said the messages were amazing and she can’t wait to get out around people so she can show them through her life that she is a devoted child of God. My heart just overflows at this. She is even vowed to change her habits at school because she said she wasn’t honoring God in her work in years past. She wants to live for God in every way that she can think of and that means being a better daughter, a better friend, and a louder and more active living example of Christ’s great love for us. She has fallen in love with Jesus all over again and has been renewed. She has experienced a revival in her life and also His amazing grace poured out to overflowing! She is walking with Him in every way and I pray this doesn’t go away for her. My prayer is that our other girls experience this same thirst and hunger for our Savior. I also pray that He begins to renew my spirit and set me on fire as He has Ciara. Her joy for Him is contagious! I can’t wait to see what He’s going to do in her life!!!
Well I guess I better get to cleaning house. It’s a complete mess!! I’ve got a load of laundry washing now but I’ve let it build up again and it will take me a better part of a week to get it all done. (sigh) I need to start treating my house as a house of the Lord and keep it the way it deserves! My family deserves to have clean clothes, clean dishes, clean bathrooms, etc. Lord willing, He will begin a new work in me and we will all see the evidence of this in my life. I thank you all for keeping us in your prayers and ask you to continue to do so. I, also, keep you in my prayers and I am so grateful for all of you! The Lord bless you and keep you in the palm of His mighty and loving hand!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
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