We have been going through a really hard time lately. The evil one is trying to do a number on us and God has allowed for certain things to happen. We are learning that God is sovereign in all things though a times we really wonder why we must endure these things. I can’t go into details because it’s of a personal nature but it’s safe to say we need your prayers. Not just Danny and I, but our girls also. We are trying to stay strong in the face of adversary, but I can say it isn’t easy. I feel like I’ve had the wind knocked out of me and I can’t catch my breath. I am happy to say that even despite all of the problems we have been going through my depression hasn’t gotten any worse, praise God!!!! However, I have had an amazing support system in our church family. They have rallied around us and kept us lifted up in prayer constantly!!! God has blessed us with them and I thank Him constantly for their unwavering love and support.
I could go into other things that have been going on, but there’s not much to tell outside of our current trial. I’ve had this whole week off to deal with this problem but it hasn’t felt like a week off. My work is being so considerate during this time and will let me take off as much time as I need to get things in order. It reminds me that God has me in the palm of His hand even when it comes to work. He has me right where He wants me and will work on me accordingly. I don’t just love what I do, I love the people there!! They are great Christians and they too have kept us in their prayers. God has led me to this job and I love Him for that. I try to recall a job that I’ve loved this much and the people I’ve loved this much and I can’t think of one! I’m truly content working and being right where God wants me.
Also please pray for some of our family members. They are not being supportive right now and some of them are being down right mean and spreading vicious rumors about us. If you hear of any of these rumors please message me so I can set the story straight. Things have been posted to facebook that should never been put on there!!! I can’t begin to tell you the anger I feel about this!!! Danny and I are both very upset over this!!! Some of the family has been very concerned and voiced their love for us and for that we are so thankful. To be honest it has been hard not to act on this anger but I know it’s not what the Lord wants of me or us. We have had to get to the point that we have to look past what people are saying and we are learning to ignore it. However, the girls haven’t been able to do that. The family’s words are hurting them and that’s another thing that makes this time extra hard. One of our girls has called a few people out on their post, but there are still things getting around that I’m not seeing. I just have to leave it in God’s hands and let Him deal with it.
If you have read this and are praying for us, I can’t begin to express my thanks!!! God will get us through this time, but we can never have enough prayers. Also know I am lifting you up in prayer also. We are blessed to have people in you in our lives!!! Danny and I both appreciate you all!!! If God opens an opportunity to share our current problem with you all I will share it with you, but for the moment I must respect my family’s wishes and keep it among us. Also please remember that if you do hear rumblings on facebook, please notify me. I would love to straighten out those who have the story wrong, but I will wait until they reach out to us first. I guess I’ve rambled on enough now with a vagueness that is probably irritating. Again thank you for your prayers and we love you all!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Friday, July 16, 2010
Monday, June 14, 2010
So Much To Tell!!!!
There has been so much that’s happened that there is no way I’m going to remember everything, but I’m going to try lol. I’ve had the past week off, but I’ve been so busy that I haven’t had a chance to get on here. I’m going to be off this next week too (yea!) because this is the time I have Ciara and Shannon. They are out for their two week visitation during the month of June and we’ll do this all over again the month of July. I love it when they are out here!! We have so much fun and stay so busy with them. We’ve had some great bonding moments and I praise God for that. Children are such a blessing and there are times I wonder why God chose me to bring them up in His ways when there are others out there that could do such a better job than I do. I guess, though, that I do try and He sees that. But enough of that now on to the latest!
I guess the biggest news is Danny bought me laser eye surgery for Mother’s Day, my birthday, and our anniversary! It was for all three (because they all fall in one month of each other) because it is a very expensive procedure and insurance won’t cover it because they consider it cosmetic. I don’t see how it’s cosmetic when your vision is as bad as mine was. But I went in a week ago Friday for the procedure, and I didn’t get Lasik because my cornea’s were so disfigured and that’s what was causing my stigmatism. The doctor said I could have been born with it or it was due from wearing contacts for such a long time. In any case I underwent a procedure called a PRK and rather than cutting the cornea they due the laser right on top of the eye and then smooth out the cornea. I received numbing eye drops but even with that it was pretty uncomfortable. However, if given the choice I would do it all over again!! Afterwards my eyes hurt so bad and all I wanted to do was sleep for four days. My vision right after was blurry and it was like having a bad pair of contacts in. My eyes were extremely light sensitive and they gave me a pair of polarized sunglasses. Now don’t ask me the difference between regular sunglasses and polarized, but I do know that the glasses felt great on lol!!! My vision is getting better with each passing day but it will take a full two months for it to completely heal and to see as clearly as I will. It’s hard to imagine because they are saying that I will be able to see things I have never seen before. Right now I can’t comprehend that but I’m so excited to finally be able to experience it!!
Danny’s retirement is going really well. He has already had a few jobs and he’s loving it! We now have all the equipment and he is fulfilling a lifelong dream by doing this! He has some more jobs coming up and we still need to do some advertising but I have just prayed that if this is what the Lord wants him to do that He would prosper us and give us all the jobs we can handle. I’ve gone with him a couple of times to job sites and we have a good time together. I went and got him a nice daily planner and organizer to help him keep tract of his hours, mileage, appointments, etc. We registered for our farm license and we should be getting that pretty soon so we won’t have to pay taxes on the feed we get and other things for the business since it’s farm related. It’s going really well and the Lord is really watching over us!
Well our washer finally went out the other day and it went out at such a bad time!! I haven’t done laundry in forever and I was planning (strongly stress the word planning lol) on doing some laundry this week. I told Danny what had happened and normally he can fix these things. However, not this time!! We are wondering if the flooding in our house caused it to short out, but Danny said even though we had standing water in the utility room he didn’t think insurance would cover it. So you think I would be excited about getting a new washer and dryer, and I guess I am, but all I hear when I think about it is cha-ching $$$$!!!!! Danny is hoping by getting me a new set that I will take to liking doing laundry more, but I don’t know about that hahaha. He did get me a very nice set though; he takes such good care of me!!!
Oh which reminds me!!! When we got the major hailstorm it destroyed our pool so insurance covered part of it so we are getting a new one! Danny was looking at pools while I was working and when I got out of work he called me to see if I wanted to come approve the pool that he had picked out. So I drove over there and the pool he picked out is so nice!!!! He then asked me if I wanted to go look at some toys and I said sure. So we are walking over and he stops at a hot tub and ask if I’d like it as a toy. I said sure! Then I replied that we couldn’t afford it and I asked him if he was joking. He said yeah he was joking so I was like OK. Then he says what if he wasn’t joking? So again I asked him if he was joking or not. He says yes, I mean no…and he had this huge smile on his face. So he buys me a hot tub!!! I can’t tell you how long I wanted one!!! I don’t love him because of what he buys me or what he does for me…I love his heart and how he loves me! He’s always thinking of what will make me happy and goes to the Nth degree to supply for me what I want and what I need. His love amazes me!!!
Let’s see what else has happened??? My mom had her grand opening for her hair salon on Saturday and it was a smashing success!! I was really happy for her. The relationship between her and Danny is still very stressed and I just pray she comes around soon. Also the girls and I have been swimming at the local pool (even though I’m not very much fun because I can’t get my face wet because of the eye surgery) and we are going to play racquet ball. Racquet ball seems to be our new obsession and we love hitting the ball around and just having a good time. We love laughing with each other and at each other lol. We have so much fun and we are getting a workout while we are doing it. Ciara swears I’ve lost some weight but I can’t tell it. Danny had talked about taking me on a trip to Mexico to the beach, but with all the problems going on down there we didn’t dare try it. We are also getting a new miniature dachshund as soon as we sell Hannah. We are getting a red female and her name will be Anayah. I’m so excited to have another new puppy to spoil although I must say I will be so sad to see Hannah go!! She has wiggled her way into my heart and she is just precious!! She looks so much like her daddy Asher and someone will make some good money off of her puppies!! I really wanted to keep her, but that would required me getting another Isabella (that’s a suede color) male and I’m afraid that Asher would hurt another male because he’s so territorial. So I will consider getting another Isabella female and I’m pretty sure her name will be Abigail. But that’s later on so I won’t worry about it right now.
I guess other than that I’m just working on working weeks and hanging out with the family. I’m loving life and feeling great. I’ve gone out with Megan a few nights and had a blast with her. I’m trying to curb my shopping and I’m working on building self-control because I am really lacking at it when it comes to my work and buying clothes there. Sorry this turned out to be so long, but there was so much to share! I pray for you all daily and hope you are doing well. May the good Lord bless you and keep you! Much love to you all!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
I guess the biggest news is Danny bought me laser eye surgery for Mother’s Day, my birthday, and our anniversary! It was for all three (because they all fall in one month of each other) because it is a very expensive procedure and insurance won’t cover it because they consider it cosmetic. I don’t see how it’s cosmetic when your vision is as bad as mine was. But I went in a week ago Friday for the procedure, and I didn’t get Lasik because my cornea’s were so disfigured and that’s what was causing my stigmatism. The doctor said I could have been born with it or it was due from wearing contacts for such a long time. In any case I underwent a procedure called a PRK and rather than cutting the cornea they due the laser right on top of the eye and then smooth out the cornea. I received numbing eye drops but even with that it was pretty uncomfortable. However, if given the choice I would do it all over again!! Afterwards my eyes hurt so bad and all I wanted to do was sleep for four days. My vision right after was blurry and it was like having a bad pair of contacts in. My eyes were extremely light sensitive and they gave me a pair of polarized sunglasses. Now don’t ask me the difference between regular sunglasses and polarized, but I do know that the glasses felt great on lol!!! My vision is getting better with each passing day but it will take a full two months for it to completely heal and to see as clearly as I will. It’s hard to imagine because they are saying that I will be able to see things I have never seen before. Right now I can’t comprehend that but I’m so excited to finally be able to experience it!!
Danny’s retirement is going really well. He has already had a few jobs and he’s loving it! We now have all the equipment and he is fulfilling a lifelong dream by doing this! He has some more jobs coming up and we still need to do some advertising but I have just prayed that if this is what the Lord wants him to do that He would prosper us and give us all the jobs we can handle. I’ve gone with him a couple of times to job sites and we have a good time together. I went and got him a nice daily planner and organizer to help him keep tract of his hours, mileage, appointments, etc. We registered for our farm license and we should be getting that pretty soon so we won’t have to pay taxes on the feed we get and other things for the business since it’s farm related. It’s going really well and the Lord is really watching over us!
Well our washer finally went out the other day and it went out at such a bad time!! I haven’t done laundry in forever and I was planning (strongly stress the word planning lol) on doing some laundry this week. I told Danny what had happened and normally he can fix these things. However, not this time!! We are wondering if the flooding in our house caused it to short out, but Danny said even though we had standing water in the utility room he didn’t think insurance would cover it. So you think I would be excited about getting a new washer and dryer, and I guess I am, but all I hear when I think about it is cha-ching $$$$!!!!! Danny is hoping by getting me a new set that I will take to liking doing laundry more, but I don’t know about that hahaha. He did get me a very nice set though; he takes such good care of me!!!
Oh which reminds me!!! When we got the major hailstorm it destroyed our pool so insurance covered part of it so we are getting a new one! Danny was looking at pools while I was working and when I got out of work he called me to see if I wanted to come approve the pool that he had picked out. So I drove over there and the pool he picked out is so nice!!!! He then asked me if I wanted to go look at some toys and I said sure. So we are walking over and he stops at a hot tub and ask if I’d like it as a toy. I said sure! Then I replied that we couldn’t afford it and I asked him if he was joking. He said yeah he was joking so I was like OK. Then he says what if he wasn’t joking? So again I asked him if he was joking or not. He says yes, I mean no…and he had this huge smile on his face. So he buys me a hot tub!!! I can’t tell you how long I wanted one!!! I don’t love him because of what he buys me or what he does for me…I love his heart and how he loves me! He’s always thinking of what will make me happy and goes to the Nth degree to supply for me what I want and what I need. His love amazes me!!!
Let’s see what else has happened??? My mom had her grand opening for her hair salon on Saturday and it was a smashing success!! I was really happy for her. The relationship between her and Danny is still very stressed and I just pray she comes around soon. Also the girls and I have been swimming at the local pool (even though I’m not very much fun because I can’t get my face wet because of the eye surgery) and we are going to play racquet ball. Racquet ball seems to be our new obsession and we love hitting the ball around and just having a good time. We love laughing with each other and at each other lol. We have so much fun and we are getting a workout while we are doing it. Ciara swears I’ve lost some weight but I can’t tell it. Danny had talked about taking me on a trip to Mexico to the beach, but with all the problems going on down there we didn’t dare try it. We are also getting a new miniature dachshund as soon as we sell Hannah. We are getting a red female and her name will be Anayah. I’m so excited to have another new puppy to spoil although I must say I will be so sad to see Hannah go!! She has wiggled her way into my heart and she is just precious!! She looks so much like her daddy Asher and someone will make some good money off of her puppies!! I really wanted to keep her, but that would required me getting another Isabella (that’s a suede color) male and I’m afraid that Asher would hurt another male because he’s so territorial. So I will consider getting another Isabella female and I’m pretty sure her name will be Abigail. But that’s later on so I won’t worry about it right now.
I guess other than that I’m just working on working weeks and hanging out with the family. I’m loving life and feeling great. I’ve gone out with Megan a few nights and had a blast with her. I’m trying to curb my shopping and I’m working on building self-control because I am really lacking at it when it comes to my work and buying clothes there. Sorry this turned out to be so long, but there was so much to share! I pray for you all daily and hope you are doing well. May the good Lord bless you and keep you! Much love to you all!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Monday, May 31, 2010
A Hot One....
Well the picnic we had yesterday was great except for the heat. It was a hot one out there and being outside in the sun has given me a side effect….a killer headache!!!! I had the day off today and I had great plans for getting a lot accomplished and going out to a jobsite with Danny. Unfortunately it poured rain last night and that means a couple of things…first our house is soaked again from the rain and us being damaged from the hail storm…it also means the ground was too wet to go out and work today. Because my headache came on last night I decided to take a short nap around 7:00, but what it turned into was an all night sleepfest. I didn’t get up until 11:00 this morning!!! Now while it may seem great to sleep that long what my goal was to sleep off my headache….well it didn’t work . Instead I have had to fight this headache all day and I’m still tired and hot again as it is well into the 90’s out there. Sigh…
Ok what I left out yesterday…we are now the proud owners of a bulldozer, tractor (and all the implements), a massive trailer, and a huge dump truck!!! We now have everything we need for Danny to start his business. Before we had it all he was already getting calls for jobs!!! My prayer has been that if this is really what God wants Danny to do is that He will make Danny extremely successful at this. There is still much we have to do. We need to file a LLC, get our farm tax number, our business tax number, file our business name with the county offices, and advertise. There’s still plenty to do but we are trying to go ahead and start the business so we can have some additional income coming in. I can’t tell you Danny is to have everything. He says he finally feels like he is doing something that he loves and he is doing something that you can actually see what you’ve done and it gives him a sense of accomplishment.
We have had one accident since owning the equipment. Danny was trying to get off the bulldozer and he slipped and fell on his bad to the metal tracks. He ended up straining his back and his ankle. I took him to the ER, but when we got there he saw several drug dealers that he had put in jail so there was no way we could stay there. So he toughed it out. He still has a pretty bad headache and a backache but I guess that is to be expected. Right now he is really frustrated from dealing with all the insurance adjusters trying to get the house fixed up. I can’t begin to describe how bad it looks. I might have said this before, but it’s worth repeating…it looks like someone took a 12 gauge shotgun and shot our house up. The siding is horrible, the skirting is shot (we live in a mobile home), the guttering is destroyed, we have broken windows, 2 busted skylights (one in each bathroom), a truck that looks like someone took a hammer to it! The list just goes on and on. The bad thing now is that the roofers came out and ripped off part of the roof (major hail damage up there) and then left and all they did is cover with holey tarps. So now every time it rains the water pours into the house and soaks the ceilings, the floors, and the counters. The adjuster that came out did give us a fair estimate for covering all the damage including a new pool since the hail ruined that too.
Well it sounds like my hubby is back and we’ve got to go drop off the bulldozer at a worksite. I pray you have all had a wonderful Memorial Day. One last thing before I go…I have a very dear friend who is going through some amazingly difficult things right now. I can’t give you details because they are personal to her, nor do I want to give her name because I’m not sure she would want me to. However, the Lord knows who it is and I would appreciate your prayers for her. Praying for you all also. Peace be with you!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Ok what I left out yesterday…we are now the proud owners of a bulldozer, tractor (and all the implements), a massive trailer, and a huge dump truck!!! We now have everything we need for Danny to start his business. Before we had it all he was already getting calls for jobs!!! My prayer has been that if this is really what God wants Danny to do is that He will make Danny extremely successful at this. There is still much we have to do. We need to file a LLC, get our farm tax number, our business tax number, file our business name with the county offices, and advertise. There’s still plenty to do but we are trying to go ahead and start the business so we can have some additional income coming in. I can’t tell you Danny is to have everything. He says he finally feels like he is doing something that he loves and he is doing something that you can actually see what you’ve done and it gives him a sense of accomplishment.
We have had one accident since owning the equipment. Danny was trying to get off the bulldozer and he slipped and fell on his bad to the metal tracks. He ended up straining his back and his ankle. I took him to the ER, but when we got there he saw several drug dealers that he had put in jail so there was no way we could stay there. So he toughed it out. He still has a pretty bad headache and a backache but I guess that is to be expected. Right now he is really frustrated from dealing with all the insurance adjusters trying to get the house fixed up. I can’t begin to describe how bad it looks. I might have said this before, but it’s worth repeating…it looks like someone took a 12 gauge shotgun and shot our house up. The siding is horrible, the skirting is shot (we live in a mobile home), the guttering is destroyed, we have broken windows, 2 busted skylights (one in each bathroom), a truck that looks like someone took a hammer to it! The list just goes on and on. The bad thing now is that the roofers came out and ripped off part of the roof (major hail damage up there) and then left and all they did is cover with holey tarps. So now every time it rains the water pours into the house and soaks the ceilings, the floors, and the counters. The adjuster that came out did give us a fair estimate for covering all the damage including a new pool since the hail ruined that too.
Well it sounds like my hubby is back and we’ve got to go drop off the bulldozer at a worksite. I pray you have all had a wonderful Memorial Day. One last thing before I go…I have a very dear friend who is going through some amazingly difficult things right now. I can’t give you details because they are personal to her, nor do I want to give her name because I’m not sure she would want me to. However, the Lord knows who it is and I would appreciate your prayers for her. Praying for you all also. Peace be with you!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Happy Memorial Day!!!
Short and sweet guys…we are going over to Ruth’s (Danny’s ex-in-laws) to celebrate Memorial Day and we get to see our girls!!! Most people think it’s odd to spend time with his ex-wife and her family but for us it works out really great! We are really blessed to have this kind of relationship with them. I can easily say that Ruth and Gene (his ex-in-laws) love me more than my family loves Danny. That’s really quite sad, yet I realize that I have been blessed with them and by them.
Rachel (Elowyn’s puppy) didn’t make it. I can’t begin to tell you how broken hearted I was over losing her. We now have one puppy left (out of three) and that’s Hannah. She is so beautiful and tiny, yet she’s a little porker. She has this little fat belly that’s so stinking cute it’s not even funny. We aren’t keeping her and I thought we would be able to sell her for around $850 but the market is so soft right now we’ll probably only be able to get $650 out of her. I’ll be sad to see her go but Danny has promised me more puppies in the future. I now know that I am capable of handling births and raisings and also selling so I know this will be my future job. The one thing I’ll have to do different is not spoil them quite so much because it took Elowyn almost three days to finally get the hang of being a mother.
In other news (and great news) Danny finally told me what I was getting for my mother’s day, birthday, and anniversary. He is buying me laser eye surgery for my horrible eyes. I can’t begin to tell you how excited I am over this. I haven’t been able to see without assistance from glasses or contacts since I was in fifth grade, but even before that I had horrible eye sight. It was so unexpected!!! I have the best husband in the world and I am so blessed to have him.
Well we have to run to the picnic now. I’ll be back with more that I left out since I was trying to make this short. We do now have all the equipment for Danny to start his business and he is already getting jobs. God is really providing for us and it’s great to see Him move in our lives. I hope you all have a blessed Memorial Day weekend. Remember to thank your military for the wonderful job they do and all the sacrifices that they make for us. God bless them!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Rachel (Elowyn’s puppy) didn’t make it. I can’t begin to tell you how broken hearted I was over losing her. We now have one puppy left (out of three) and that’s Hannah. She is so beautiful and tiny, yet she’s a little porker. She has this little fat belly that’s so stinking cute it’s not even funny. We aren’t keeping her and I thought we would be able to sell her for around $850 but the market is so soft right now we’ll probably only be able to get $650 out of her. I’ll be sad to see her go but Danny has promised me more puppies in the future. I now know that I am capable of handling births and raisings and also selling so I know this will be my future job. The one thing I’ll have to do different is not spoil them quite so much because it took Elowyn almost three days to finally get the hang of being a mother.
In other news (and great news) Danny finally told me what I was getting for my mother’s day, birthday, and anniversary. He is buying me laser eye surgery for my horrible eyes. I can’t begin to tell you how excited I am over this. I haven’t been able to see without assistance from glasses or contacts since I was in fifth grade, but even before that I had horrible eye sight. It was so unexpected!!! I have the best husband in the world and I am so blessed to have him.
Well we have to run to the picnic now. I’ll be back with more that I left out since I was trying to make this short. We do now have all the equipment for Danny to start his business and he is already getting jobs. God is really providing for us and it’s great to see Him move in our lives. I hope you all have a blessed Memorial Day weekend. Remember to thank your military for the wonderful job they do and all the sacrifices that they make for us. God bless them!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Thursday, May 20, 2010
A Quick Update...
I thought I would do a quick update on what’s going on. Last night storms were pretty bad, but thank the Lord they all missed us! We saw a massive lowering that looked like it was fixing to tornado any second. We were less than a quarter of a mile from it and it was huge!! We did receive more hail last night and I don’t think I told you all that during the last hail storm it broke our windows, skylights, and it looks like someone shot our house with a shotgun. If I already told you sorry to repeat myself, but the damage is bad. Every time it rains now our ceiling gets sopping wet and we get rain in the bathtubs. Danny’s new truck also received a lot of damage. The insurance people are thinking that they may just have to buy a new hood for it because the dents are so big. The hail that hit us was bigger than baseball size!!! The hail that we received last night was about pea size. Oh, also it tore up our roof!!! We’ll have to have a new roof put on with everything else. Danny is now wondering if the hail killed our cat Conan. It’s all conjecture at this point in time but the hail was big enough to do that type of damage.
The latest going on with the puppies is we had to rush Rachel to the vet today. She’s only five days old and she isn’t eating (hasn’t been for about two days now) and about two hours ago she started bleeding out of her rectum. This is really bad. When we got her to the vet her body temperature was just a few degrees away from being dead. She is so very tiny and can’t keep her own body heat up. Also Elowyn’s milk is already drying up!!! The vet told us to feed her cottage cheese to see if we can get her milk coming back in. Now Hannah is doing very well and the vet gave her the stamp of health because she is so very fat (unlike her little sister)!!!! I have already grown so attached to Rachel and I would be heartbroken if we lost her! She looks exactly like my little Elowyn while Hannah looks exactly like Asher. So I’m really praying that Rachel can pull through this otherwise my little lamb (that’s what Rachel means) will be a little lamb of God’s. Elowyn is looking around the house for Rachel and whining because she can’t find her. For starting out as such a bad mommy she has really come around. I did give her some cottage cheese earlier and while she ate a little of it, she didn’t know quite what to make of it lol.
Ok I’m going to get off here and start working on the house. The insurance adjuster is coming out to make a claim on Monday and will need to come into the house to check everything out. While the tornadoes missed us it looks like a tornado has hit the inside of this house. So I’m off to go be a good wife and clean before Grey’s Anatomy comes on. Please keep Rachel in your prayers. I’m not quite ready for her to go to doggy heaven yet. *sniff sniff
Melissa Fitzwilliam
The latest going on with the puppies is we had to rush Rachel to the vet today. She’s only five days old and she isn’t eating (hasn’t been for about two days now) and about two hours ago she started bleeding out of her rectum. This is really bad. When we got her to the vet her body temperature was just a few degrees away from being dead. She is so very tiny and can’t keep her own body heat up. Also Elowyn’s milk is already drying up!!! The vet told us to feed her cottage cheese to see if we can get her milk coming back in. Now Hannah is doing very well and the vet gave her the stamp of health because she is so very fat (unlike her little sister)!!!! I have already grown so attached to Rachel and I would be heartbroken if we lost her! She looks exactly like my little Elowyn while Hannah looks exactly like Asher. So I’m really praying that Rachel can pull through this otherwise my little lamb (that’s what Rachel means) will be a little lamb of God’s. Elowyn is looking around the house for Rachel and whining because she can’t find her. For starting out as such a bad mommy she has really come around. I did give her some cottage cheese earlier and while she ate a little of it, she didn’t know quite what to make of it lol.
Ok I’m going to get off here and start working on the house. The insurance adjuster is coming out to make a claim on Monday and will need to come into the house to check everything out. While the tornadoes missed us it looks like a tornado has hit the inside of this house. So I’m off to go be a good wife and clean before Grey’s Anatomy comes on. Please keep Rachel in your prayers. I’m not quite ready for her to go to doggy heaven yet. *sniff sniff
Melissa Fitzwilliam
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
So Busy Lately and....Puppies!!!! Oh and an Afterthough of Tornadoes
Man I have been so busy lately!!! In between work and family things have been nuts! I hardly get on the computer anymore, much less blog. When I do have free time I’m so dead I just can’t bring myself to blog. But here I am with some time on my hands (even though I should be cleaning house instead) so I thought I would brief everyone on the latest things. But the question now is where to begin???
I guess I’ll only recap these past few days because everything else is work related, whether it be me or Danny. So here recently Ciara and I have started to go play racquet ball. We have so much fun playing but man am I sore when we get done then over the next couple of days. Ciara hadn’t played racquet ball before and she absolutely loves it now. It’s great bonding time for the both of us, just one on one time. With her growing up I think it’s really important that I do this. I also want her to think of me as a fun mom who’s willing to get out and be silly with her. We laugh so much when we do. She’s trying to talk me into doing a gym membership but they are pretty high. I think for the time being it’s cheaper to just be a guest. We’ll see where God leads us with it, but it’s not anything I’m going to jump into.
Yesterday was my birthday and normally it is a day that I hate. Why you ask? My uncle (favorite one) died on my birthday 6 years ago. It is such a sad day for me, but the family worked really hard to make it nice for me. (Back tracking for just a second Monday was Ciara’s last field trip and I was able to get off work and go with her. We had such fun on that day! It was another lovely day spent with her and she was so happy I was able to go with her). Yesterday was her party for 6th grade as they are leaving and going into 7th grade. I also went and enrolled her for Life Christian Academy for next year. I brought her home to see the puppies (Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that Elowyn had her puppies, more on that in a second) and she absolutely loved them. It was a sad day though because we lost our cat Conan, her rabbit Starbucks, and a baby bunny that looked like Zookie, all yesterday! To lose three pets in one day is really hard. There were many tears shed and a couple of graves to dig. It was a real bummer. Then it was off to dinner. Tanya, Steve, my mom, grandma, Danny, Ciara and Me all went out to eat at Mimi’s Café. I thought it would be a nice evening and while it wasn’t totally bad my mom and grandma hardly said two words to Danny all night. Danny was frustrated because he was trying so hard. I was highly disappointed in them that they didn’t try hard to be nice to Danny. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised but I was still hoping for the best and hoping they would be good with him. I need a bigger effort from them if I am to keep trying to work on this relationship.
In other news….ELOWYN HAD HER PUPPIES!!!!!!! It happened on May 15th and she had three but only two of them survived. One is Isabella color (suede) and the other is black and tan so one looks like mommy and one looks like daddy. They are both girls and I have already named them Hannah and Rachel. Hannah means God has graced me and Rachel means little lamb (because she is ultra tiny!!!) I know that the new owners that buy them will rename them, but I would like to keep track of all the puppies we have and what better way than to name each one of them. In the beginning Elowyn was a horrible mother. She wouldn’t have anything to do with the puppies and would shake whenever we forced her to lay down with them to feed them. She was petrified of them!!! I wasn’t here when she gave birth but Danny was and he helped her. I was bummed that I missed it, but I had to work that night and there was nothing I could do about it. In any case we are so proud of her because she has done a complete turnaround (it took about two days for her to get use to them) and now she won’t leave them at all. We have to pick her up and carry her outside and force her to go to the bathroom! I am feeding her by hand because she won’t leave them long enough to eat. I can already tell it’s going to be so hard getting rid of them, but we may already have Rachel sold! Ciara’s teacher, Mrs. Cole, is considering buying her even though it won’t be for breeding. So if you can’t tell I am so excited that they are here and I’m loving every minute of it. I didn’t know about it the first couple of nights because of Elowyn not taking care of them but now that she is I’m loving it. If there is a problem it would be that she’s decided to make their bed our bed. So we’re changing the sheets everyday because they just get so messy from the babies being in there, but I wouldn’t change a thing about it!
Other than that everything has been pretty normal. Danny is working on getting our landscaping business up and running and he has been going like a mad man. He already has his first job as soon as he gets his tractor in! I am just praying that God really provides us with opportunities to work and earn money because the retirement money is going so incredibly fast! I’m still working although it’s hard to bring home any money because the clothes are so cute there. I have to start having more self control because as soon as we get freight in I’m looking through it to see what I want to buy. The good thing is I really needed some new clothes because mine were so outdated and worn out that I really needed some new clothes. I’m also buying things that both Ciara and I can wear so it’s like buying two for one. That’s the way I reason it to myself anyways. Well it’s church night so I better run. Again I wish I could do this every day because I feel like there is so much that you’re missing out on. But I really enjoy the time that I can get on here and do this. I pray that you all are well and that the Lord is lifting you up in a special way. I keep you in my prayers daily. Grace and peace to you!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
PS I was asked to share about my experience last week in being right next to a tornado. We were driving back from Lawton and there were two tornadoes in Norman. We ran into one of them on Highway 9 on our way back. It was a barrel shaped tornado and it was Oklahoma Red Dirt in color. I think they rated it at a F-2 which is winds higher than 100mph. It wasn't that scary even though we were right next to it. The main reason is I was medicated heavily because I had one of my sick headaches. I was like "Woohoo" and Danny was completely freaking out which I thought was too funny. But we had a van spin out right in front of us because of the tornado and it got real for me all of a sudden. Places around 2 miles away were really affected so it came really close to us. The day after that we got another really bad storm in with hail bigger than baseballs. That one did hit our house and it busted out our skylights, windows, it tore holes all over our siding and it looks like someone took a shot gun and shot our house up. There is major damage here now and as I sit here typing this we are having more tornado warnings going on in the state and possibly some heading our way. Please keep the people of Oklahoma in your prayers and I'll try to get back on here soon and let you know how we made it through the storms....
I guess I’ll only recap these past few days because everything else is work related, whether it be me or Danny. So here recently Ciara and I have started to go play racquet ball. We have so much fun playing but man am I sore when we get done then over the next couple of days. Ciara hadn’t played racquet ball before and she absolutely loves it now. It’s great bonding time for the both of us, just one on one time. With her growing up I think it’s really important that I do this. I also want her to think of me as a fun mom who’s willing to get out and be silly with her. We laugh so much when we do. She’s trying to talk me into doing a gym membership but they are pretty high. I think for the time being it’s cheaper to just be a guest. We’ll see where God leads us with it, but it’s not anything I’m going to jump into.
Yesterday was my birthday and normally it is a day that I hate. Why you ask? My uncle (favorite one) died on my birthday 6 years ago. It is such a sad day for me, but the family worked really hard to make it nice for me. (Back tracking for just a second Monday was Ciara’s last field trip and I was able to get off work and go with her. We had such fun on that day! It was another lovely day spent with her and she was so happy I was able to go with her). Yesterday was her party for 6th grade as they are leaving and going into 7th grade. I also went and enrolled her for Life Christian Academy for next year. I brought her home to see the puppies (Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that Elowyn had her puppies, more on that in a second) and she absolutely loved them. It was a sad day though because we lost our cat Conan, her rabbit Starbucks, and a baby bunny that looked like Zookie, all yesterday! To lose three pets in one day is really hard. There were many tears shed and a couple of graves to dig. It was a real bummer. Then it was off to dinner. Tanya, Steve, my mom, grandma, Danny, Ciara and Me all went out to eat at Mimi’s Café. I thought it would be a nice evening and while it wasn’t totally bad my mom and grandma hardly said two words to Danny all night. Danny was frustrated because he was trying so hard. I was highly disappointed in them that they didn’t try hard to be nice to Danny. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised but I was still hoping for the best and hoping they would be good with him. I need a bigger effort from them if I am to keep trying to work on this relationship.
In other news….ELOWYN HAD HER PUPPIES!!!!!!! It happened on May 15th and she had three but only two of them survived. One is Isabella color (suede) and the other is black and tan so one looks like mommy and one looks like daddy. They are both girls and I have already named them Hannah and Rachel. Hannah means God has graced me and Rachel means little lamb (because she is ultra tiny!!!) I know that the new owners that buy them will rename them, but I would like to keep track of all the puppies we have and what better way than to name each one of them. In the beginning Elowyn was a horrible mother. She wouldn’t have anything to do with the puppies and would shake whenever we forced her to lay down with them to feed them. She was petrified of them!!! I wasn’t here when she gave birth but Danny was and he helped her. I was bummed that I missed it, but I had to work that night and there was nothing I could do about it. In any case we are so proud of her because she has done a complete turnaround (it took about two days for her to get use to them) and now she won’t leave them at all. We have to pick her up and carry her outside and force her to go to the bathroom! I am feeding her by hand because she won’t leave them long enough to eat. I can already tell it’s going to be so hard getting rid of them, but we may already have Rachel sold! Ciara’s teacher, Mrs. Cole, is considering buying her even though it won’t be for breeding. So if you can’t tell I am so excited that they are here and I’m loving every minute of it. I didn’t know about it the first couple of nights because of Elowyn not taking care of them but now that she is I’m loving it. If there is a problem it would be that she’s decided to make their bed our bed. So we’re changing the sheets everyday because they just get so messy from the babies being in there, but I wouldn’t change a thing about it!
Other than that everything has been pretty normal. Danny is working on getting our landscaping business up and running and he has been going like a mad man. He already has his first job as soon as he gets his tractor in! I am just praying that God really provides us with opportunities to work and earn money because the retirement money is going so incredibly fast! I’m still working although it’s hard to bring home any money because the clothes are so cute there. I have to start having more self control because as soon as we get freight in I’m looking through it to see what I want to buy. The good thing is I really needed some new clothes because mine were so outdated and worn out that I really needed some new clothes. I’m also buying things that both Ciara and I can wear so it’s like buying two for one. That’s the way I reason it to myself anyways. Well it’s church night so I better run. Again I wish I could do this every day because I feel like there is so much that you’re missing out on. But I really enjoy the time that I can get on here and do this. I pray that you all are well and that the Lord is lifting you up in a special way. I keep you in my prayers daily. Grace and peace to you!!!!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
PS I was asked to share about my experience last week in being right next to a tornado. We were driving back from Lawton and there were two tornadoes in Norman. We ran into one of them on Highway 9 on our way back. It was a barrel shaped tornado and it was Oklahoma Red Dirt in color. I think they rated it at a F-2 which is winds higher than 100mph. It wasn't that scary even though we were right next to it. The main reason is I was medicated heavily because I had one of my sick headaches. I was like "Woohoo" and Danny was completely freaking out which I thought was too funny. But we had a van spin out right in front of us because of the tornado and it got real for me all of a sudden. Places around 2 miles away were really affected so it came really close to us. The day after that we got another really bad storm in with hail bigger than baseballs. That one did hit our house and it busted out our skylights, windows, it tore holes all over our siding and it looks like someone took a shot gun and shot our house up. There is major damage here now and as I sit here typing this we are having more tornado warnings going on in the state and possibly some heading our way. Please keep the people of Oklahoma in your prayers and I'll try to get back on here soon and let you know how we made it through the storms....
Friday, May 7, 2010
Skimming Over the Top of the Latest....
Well it’s been a whirlwind of events this past week. I know I won’t be able to remember it all and I’m not even going to try, but I’ll do my best to fill you in on the latest. Let’s see, first and foremost Danny got a new truck. Yes, I know he just got a brand new one in July, but with him retiring and trying to start a new business with farm equipment he needed one that would pull more weight. It’s a really nice truck, and everyone seems to be totally in love with it. I’m ok with it, I guess I’m kind of indifferent about it. It really didn’t cost much more since it was used and the trade in almost balanced it out. It’s a 2004 Ford Harley Davidson edition super duty diesel. (That last part was from Danny lol) In any case, we’re taking a trip in it to El Reno tomorrow to go to a fishing tournament so Ciara can fish. It should be a fun time.
I’ve been having the craziest dreams here recently! They are random and so bizarre! They wake me up in the middle of the night laughing, crying, and just the other day mad as all get out!! In one of them I dreamed that Danny was cheating on me and it was a long dream so I’ll spare you the details but I woke up and I was livid at him!!! I felt so betrayed! I know it was just a dream, but you know those dreams you have that are so vivid and life like that they leave you with that feeling for the rest of the day? Well that’s what it was like! It was crazy! I told Danny the dream and he was said, “Like that would ever happen” but still I couldn’t help from being mad and hurt. It’s funny now but it wasn’t that day.
Let’s see… I’ve been working so much lately and not much has changed about my job. I still love it and buy way more than I should! It’s so hard to work around cute clothes and not buy them. Danny told me I had to stop buying stuff and not put anything else in layaway. Things are on low key with my mom because I haven’t been calling her or texting her. I’m not mad at her, I’ve just been so busy! Danny’s mom (Lois or Ma) thinks I’m mad at her because I haven’t been around lately and I told him to tell her I’ve been working non-stop. She still wants me to call when I get off, but I just don’t think about it. I’m so bad about being wrapped up in my own life and what’s going on that often I forget to think about others. It sounds incredibly selfish and I guess it is, it’s just something I’ll have to break myself of.
Danny is getting geared up to start his business with heavy equipment. He’s buying a dump truck, a tractor, and all the “things” that go on a tractor to do heavy lifting and moving, etc. He’s really excited about it and I guess I am. I want to be supportive, but I would be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous. We have no customer basis and no business plan. I know God will work everything out so I’m just trying to have faith on this new road that He’s taking us down.
Elowyn is getting so big!!! I figure the puppies should be due in the next three weeks or so. I was holding her in bed the other night and I’ve gotten to where I sleep with my hand on her tummy. Anyway I was lying there and I felt one of the puppies kick! I can’t tell you how excited I was! It’s going to be so hard to part with the babies when the time comes! But we are already talking about buying two more wiener dogs and I’m super excited about that. Life continues to move forward and I’m just rolling with it. I really want to start my business where I’m breeding the dogs all the time. If I had 10 litters a year I would make more than working at the Buckle. I know that sounds like a lot, but I love doing it. We’ll see how I do selling this litter of pups and go from there. All I know is I love my dogs and they have become my babies of sorts.
Well I’ve got to jump off here. Mommy duties call. And wife duties lol. I miss being on here and sharing about my daily life. You guys are missing out on so much and by the time I get on here I’ve forgotten so much I just skim over the top of what I can remember. Ok I’ve really got to go….know that I’m praying for you all and how thankful I am for you!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
I’ve been having the craziest dreams here recently! They are random and so bizarre! They wake me up in the middle of the night laughing, crying, and just the other day mad as all get out!! In one of them I dreamed that Danny was cheating on me and it was a long dream so I’ll spare you the details but I woke up and I was livid at him!!! I felt so betrayed! I know it was just a dream, but you know those dreams you have that are so vivid and life like that they leave you with that feeling for the rest of the day? Well that’s what it was like! It was crazy! I told Danny the dream and he was said, “Like that would ever happen” but still I couldn’t help from being mad and hurt. It’s funny now but it wasn’t that day.
Let’s see… I’ve been working so much lately and not much has changed about my job. I still love it and buy way more than I should! It’s so hard to work around cute clothes and not buy them. Danny told me I had to stop buying stuff and not put anything else in layaway. Things are on low key with my mom because I haven’t been calling her or texting her. I’m not mad at her, I’ve just been so busy! Danny’s mom (Lois or Ma) thinks I’m mad at her because I haven’t been around lately and I told him to tell her I’ve been working non-stop. She still wants me to call when I get off, but I just don’t think about it. I’m so bad about being wrapped up in my own life and what’s going on that often I forget to think about others. It sounds incredibly selfish and I guess it is, it’s just something I’ll have to break myself of.
Danny is getting geared up to start his business with heavy equipment. He’s buying a dump truck, a tractor, and all the “things” that go on a tractor to do heavy lifting and moving, etc. He’s really excited about it and I guess I am. I want to be supportive, but I would be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous. We have no customer basis and no business plan. I know God will work everything out so I’m just trying to have faith on this new road that He’s taking us down.
Elowyn is getting so big!!! I figure the puppies should be due in the next three weeks or so. I was holding her in bed the other night and I’ve gotten to where I sleep with my hand on her tummy. Anyway I was lying there and I felt one of the puppies kick! I can’t tell you how excited I was! It’s going to be so hard to part with the babies when the time comes! But we are already talking about buying two more wiener dogs and I’m super excited about that. Life continues to move forward and I’m just rolling with it. I really want to start my business where I’m breeding the dogs all the time. If I had 10 litters a year I would make more than working at the Buckle. I know that sounds like a lot, but I love doing it. We’ll see how I do selling this litter of pups and go from there. All I know is I love my dogs and they have become my babies of sorts.
Well I’ve got to jump off here. Mommy duties call. And wife duties lol. I miss being on here and sharing about my daily life. You guys are missing out on so much and by the time I get on here I’ve forgotten so much I just skim over the top of what I can remember. Ok I’ve really got to go….know that I’m praying for you all and how thankful I am for you!
Melissa Fitzwilliam
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